Curious
Well, it's been about three and a half months since I last posted on this blog. I wonder if anyone has seen it since then? Highly doubtful. :-D How awesome is that? I'm basically posting to myself. But on the off chance that someone does stumble upon this blog, feel free to leave a comment. If someone leaves a comment for this post, I will resume posting on this public blog. Otherwise I'll continue the random posts on my private one every month or so, or just stick totally to my journal/poetry. So... now what?
My life is a constant blur of homework, church, scholarships, work, band, and the random other things that so often creep into the picture. I'm enjoying every minute of it (well, mostly) and my perspective is definitely changing with the tides of the year. The closer Graduation gets, the more I notice differences in myself and how I view the world around me. Not great differences in who I am, obviously... just subtle differences in how I approach situations and people. It's interesting and I must admit, I can't wait to get out and move on. But no rush... it will come soon enough, I'm sure.
The view from now (not to steal Jackie's phrase!) is definitely an intriguing one, and swiftly changing. I welcome these inevitable winds of change, though I'm not quite ready to fly yet. I'm working my way up to it, and discovering more than I ever dreamed possible. The odd thing is... all these years I've been searching for the keys within other things and people. But what I've been searching for has been here all along. The key was in the realization that I possess my own keys... and I get to choose the doors. And somewhere in the distance I can see that arc of sunshine; I can hear the voices waiting to rise up in song, and feel the cool rush of morning air. I can sense it so near, yet know that this patient journey is more valuable than any hurried rush in the wrong direction. It's painstaking, yes, and I've been slowly removing pieces of the walls around me... but I'm starting to see starshine drifting ahead, and I'm starting to form my own conclusions. Finally, I am beginning to understand. I'm certain there will be moments of uncertainty, plenty of them, and I have far to go. But I'm on my way. I have a song in my heart and His light to guide me... of whom should I be afraid?
Farewell~
My life is a constant blur of homework, church, scholarships, work, band, and the random other things that so often creep into the picture. I'm enjoying every minute of it (well, mostly) and my perspective is definitely changing with the tides of the year. The closer Graduation gets, the more I notice differences in myself and how I view the world around me. Not great differences in who I am, obviously... just subtle differences in how I approach situations and people. It's interesting and I must admit, I can't wait to get out and move on. But no rush... it will come soon enough, I'm sure.
The view from now (not to steal Jackie's phrase!) is definitely an intriguing one, and swiftly changing. I welcome these inevitable winds of change, though I'm not quite ready to fly yet. I'm working my way up to it, and discovering more than I ever dreamed possible. The odd thing is... all these years I've been searching for the keys within other things and people. But what I've been searching for has been here all along. The key was in the realization that I possess my own keys... and I get to choose the doors. And somewhere in the distance I can see that arc of sunshine; I can hear the voices waiting to rise up in song, and feel the cool rush of morning air. I can sense it so near, yet know that this patient journey is more valuable than any hurried rush in the wrong direction. It's painstaking, yes, and I've been slowly removing pieces of the walls around me... but I'm starting to see starshine drifting ahead, and I'm starting to form my own conclusions. Finally, I am beginning to understand. I'm certain there will be moments of uncertainty, plenty of them, and I have far to go. But I'm on my way. I have a song in my heart and His light to guide me... of whom should I be afraid?
Farewell~
posted by Sarah @ 9:50 PM
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