IDIOT

So... I have to write a movie review that I've already written but managed to delete or lose in my idiocy. It's just gone. I therefore decided earlier today to just save a draft of what I have so far onto here so that I can access it later and work on my essay. In another stroke of genius, I managed to forget that thought in about four seconds time and am left staring blankly at my computer screen in dismay. My brilliance stuns me into silence...

But I'll break it. I can't even believe how fast these days are going. I'm not even sure if I'd call it skating through life - it's more like flying. I think I'd prefer dancing more than anything else.

In a couple weeks I'll give a speech and pretend to believe that people will remember it. Maybe someone will, maybe not. But words are the last gift I can give, besides actions. So I'll whisper my so-called "words of wisdom" and laugh at the fact that I'm no more certain than anyone I meet about the future. But what happens that day will come soon enough... I'm not worried about that yet. Now is more important. I've realized that as the moments slip away I need to start appreciating all that's running through my fingers. It's an odd feeling, and words can't even touch upon it.

It's times like these I feel like coloring pictures with crayons and playing simple songs on the piano. The world grabs hold and demands attention with greater intensity and it's time to stop.

Maybe I'll lie on the hill and blow on dandelions and watch the stars come up.

Maybe...

Soon.