ahhhhhhhhh

I can't even contain myself!! Such joy pouring into my heart and soul and all of my being!

Today I stepped off the bus straight onto a roller coaster, and I never got off.

Literally, figuratively, say what you will, but right now I am weightless again. I close my eyes and I'm right there in that moment, holding on for dear life and unable to breathe. The world falls away as the day flashes before me - events have been thrown in motion and I no longer have the ability to stop them. I wouldn't want to. I've been suspended on the edge for so long, and now I'm toppling over into something extraordinary and exciting yet so terrifying. That statement can apply to a couple of situations in my life right now and today summarized every emotion I hold within me.

I don't think I have ever felt so truly alive.

Today was my "no regrets" day and at this moment I can honestly say that I have none. If I were to die right now I wouldn't be afraid of anything. I am weightless again on this endless roller coaster, defying gravity for a moment in time. I am fully living and soaking in the glory of God's wondrous works and I don't ever want to forget the way I feel today. Though exhaustion is starting to take over my brain, I don't want to go to sleep... I don't want to stop feeling the way I do right now.

But I guess that feelings are bound to change. This is, after all, a crazy ride. I can't predict what's about to come but I can't wait for it to get here.

I can do anything. I can do all things through Him and today he's given me the strength to overcome something I never knew I was so afraid of. And now that we're speeding down the first drop, I can't wait for the what's awaiting me at the next turn.

I am weightless. And I love every second of it!