Well, it was a rough week back. That keeps with the trend though, so I'm not going to worry too much about it.
I think professors decide to kick it into gear right after the midterm is done, for whatever reason... it seems like everything gets assigned at once. To make matters even more complicated, outside events start popping up like crazy, turning the "restful" weekends into something almost as chaotic as the average weekday. On top of that all, factor in interpersonal misunderstandings and lots of unnecessary personal stress/discernment, and you'll have a clear idea of the past eight days for me.
I don't want to complain about this--it seems like a universal trend for we college kids. Nearly everyone around me goes through the same school-related stresses both before and after break. And that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? So I'm just buffing up for finals. Haha, oh jeez, that's a scary thought. I'll try to push that one aside!
On a happier note, I have a clearer sense of what I want to do with my life, though I'm still not quite sure how or where it will take me. Before whenever someone asked me about my greatest life goal, I would answer that I wanted to make people happy, spread joy. I still do want to spread joy, but my worldview has evolved enough for me to realize that 1.) You simply can't make all people happy and 2.) Sometimes doing God's will involves stepping out and rising up against the comfortable consensus, which can in turn upset a lot of people. I've always wanted to follow God's will, but before I've made excuses and focused more on setting people at ease, keeping them in their "happy" zone and just keeping quiet if they said something I didn't particularly agree with. But now I'm starting to form a deeper understanding of my personal convictions, and in the process I've become even more curious than before. I prefer discussion and debate to silent nods of agreement. I'm still willing to keep my mind open, of course, but I'm more prone to forcing people to open their minds now than I ever was before. So thus my new goal: to listen more closely to God speaking in my life through those around me (literally all those around) and to work for His justice.
More on this later, when I'm not so tired with an impending Spanish test.
:-)
I think professors decide to kick it into gear right after the midterm is done, for whatever reason... it seems like everything gets assigned at once. To make matters even more complicated, outside events start popping up like crazy, turning the "restful" weekends into something almost as chaotic as the average weekday. On top of that all, factor in interpersonal misunderstandings and lots of unnecessary personal stress/discernment, and you'll have a clear idea of the past eight days for me.
I don't want to complain about this--it seems like a universal trend for we college kids. Nearly everyone around me goes through the same school-related stresses both before and after break. And that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? So I'm just buffing up for finals. Haha, oh jeez, that's a scary thought. I'll try to push that one aside!
On a happier note, I have a clearer sense of what I want to do with my life, though I'm still not quite sure how or where it will take me. Before whenever someone asked me about my greatest life goal, I would answer that I wanted to make people happy, spread joy. I still do want to spread joy, but my worldview has evolved enough for me to realize that 1.) You simply can't make all people happy and 2.) Sometimes doing God's will involves stepping out and rising up against the comfortable consensus, which can in turn upset a lot of people. I've always wanted to follow God's will, but before I've made excuses and focused more on setting people at ease, keeping them in their "happy" zone and just keeping quiet if they said something I didn't particularly agree with. But now I'm starting to form a deeper understanding of my personal convictions, and in the process I've become even more curious than before. I prefer discussion and debate to silent nods of agreement. I'm still willing to keep my mind open, of course, but I'm more prone to forcing people to open their minds now than I ever was before. So thus my new goal: to listen more closely to God speaking in my life through those around me (literally all those around) and to work for His justice.
More on this later, when I'm not so tired with an impending Spanish test.
:-)
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