Easter rejuvenation/homework depression
Definitely an interesting combination! I must say, the past couple weeks have been filled with all the extremes. I've experienced both glorious highs and breathtaking (and heartbreaking) plunges, as well as all the precarious, intricate footing down the rocky path between the two. I scarcely know what to make of myself right now.
The Easter vigil was beautiful, as always, and after the whole Church crew swarmed into a local restaurant and had a merry old time. We sang Happy Birthday to my mom, then my dad about five minutes later, all thanks to good old Carrie. She's so great! She kept going around telling people about whose birthday it was, urging them to sing. After a while people glanced warily at the beer in her hand, nodded with raised eyebrows and told her she should probably sit down. :-D It was cute. I colored a pretty Easter picture on my placemat! It would have been prettier had I used crayons and not Jennifer's blue pen... but oh well. There was a cute baby duck on there and it made me happy. Which reminds me!! The married geese are going to have their babies soon!! I can feel it. Anyway, where was I? Ah, yes... I got roped into singing on an Easter morning Mass. At the time my throat was killing me, so I was rather hesitant, but I agreed in spite of my worries.
I'm glad that I did. That Mass was one of the best ones I've ever had! I felt terrified right before we started (probably because we did really late warm-ups) but the moment I got out there, everything seemed okay. The place was jam-packed (Mom thinks there were around 800 people there) but the sight of them didn't even affect me. My voice felt strong, and the music was joyful, so I sang with all my heart. For the first time ever, I didn't get scared during the Psalm! It was the best feeling ever. Normally my voice kind of cracks and sounds weak out of sheer fright... but not yesterday. :-) The piano player was incredible too, so it was a ton of fun to sing with him. Only it was his last Mass with us, so that was unfortunate. We would have worked well together, and I wish I could have sung with him more. But oh well... everything seemed to go so well! But when I got home, my mom informed me that I listed ALL the wrong numbers for songs. I was just reading off of the sheet they gave me though! Oops. Other than that, it was a beautiful Mass.
Then the whole family came over for an extraordinary amount of food, Easter egg hunts, an unexpected Pride and Prejudice viewing, and lots of fun. My Gram made a bunch of deviled eggs just for me--yum! They're so great. I ate wayyyy too much, but it was worth it. It was great to talk with my family and spend some time with the kids again. I love them so much! After everyone left, Mom and I went for a walk, and then I went for a nice bike ride. Derek, Sara and Kailyn came over around 10 and we just sat and talked in the living room for two and a half hours. I couldn't believe how fast the time went! It was so great just to see them again and catch up with them though. I love my friends. I got about five and a half hours of sleep last night, which was good. On Thursday night I got eight hours and felt exhausted all day Friday. But since then I've gotten six at max, and have felt fine! It's kind of sad that I'm conditioned to thrive on six hours. Eight is too much now... makes me tired. Weird! I'll have to work on fixing that up.
So the drive back was pretty quiet. I just read a lot, and was (unfortunately) more introverted than I've been in a long time. It's such an engrossing book though: Dead Man Walking, by Sr. Helen Prejean. I highly recommend it! After Mom and Dad left, I unpacked and then went out for a nice run. It felt so good to get out, and it was absolutely gorgeous no matter where I went! It's at the prime stage of spring, so all the trees are just starting to bloom and baby leaves are peeking out. Everything is bright and new and fresh... it's all coming to life once more. The tulips and daffodils are blooming, and the new grass is still soft and vibrant. Looking around today, I realized that this time of year is the reason my favorite colors are yellow, pink and green. Those colors remind me of spring! It was exciting to get out running, especially at that time of day (6ish...) because the sun was still golden and warm and oh, it was just good to be alive! There was one minor mishap in the course of my run, but it's not of any particular importance to anyone else. I felt good at the end, so I went further than I normally do. After that my general mood took a slight tumble again, but that's okay. I'll cycle back, I'm sure. Tonight's just been kind of saddening, maybe just being back here and all. It's bittersweet.
So there, I've given you a thorough recap of the moments that provided the foundation for the "Easter rejuvenation" portion of this post. As for the "homework depression," I think it speaks for itself. I have a lot of homework, which builds on outside sources of sadness to create the familiar state known as homework depression. This is a simple and broadly accepted aspect of college life. I don't want to talk any more about that though, because I don't want to drag down your mood plus the subject matter is too personal for this blog.
So I hope you're all doing well and that you've had spectacular Easters! This is truly the season of new beginnings and rejuvenation, so I hope you all get to take advantage of it.
~<3~
The Easter vigil was beautiful, as always, and after the whole Church crew swarmed into a local restaurant and had a merry old time. We sang Happy Birthday to my mom, then my dad about five minutes later, all thanks to good old Carrie. She's so great! She kept going around telling people about whose birthday it was, urging them to sing. After a while people glanced warily at the beer in her hand, nodded with raised eyebrows and told her she should probably sit down. :-D It was cute. I colored a pretty Easter picture on my placemat! It would have been prettier had I used crayons and not Jennifer's blue pen... but oh well. There was a cute baby duck on there and it made me happy. Which reminds me!! The married geese are going to have their babies soon!! I can feel it. Anyway, where was I? Ah, yes... I got roped into singing on an Easter morning Mass. At the time my throat was killing me, so I was rather hesitant, but I agreed in spite of my worries.
I'm glad that I did. That Mass was one of the best ones I've ever had! I felt terrified right before we started (probably because we did really late warm-ups) but the moment I got out there, everything seemed okay. The place was jam-packed (Mom thinks there were around 800 people there) but the sight of them didn't even affect me. My voice felt strong, and the music was joyful, so I sang with all my heart. For the first time ever, I didn't get scared during the Psalm! It was the best feeling ever. Normally my voice kind of cracks and sounds weak out of sheer fright... but not yesterday. :-) The piano player was incredible too, so it was a ton of fun to sing with him. Only it was his last Mass with us, so that was unfortunate. We would have worked well together, and I wish I could have sung with him more. But oh well... everything seemed to go so well! But when I got home, my mom informed me that I listed ALL the wrong numbers for songs. I was just reading off of the sheet they gave me though! Oops. Other than that, it was a beautiful Mass.
Then the whole family came over for an extraordinary amount of food, Easter egg hunts, an unexpected Pride and Prejudice viewing, and lots of fun. My Gram made a bunch of deviled eggs just for me--yum! They're so great. I ate wayyyy too much, but it was worth it. It was great to talk with my family and spend some time with the kids again. I love them so much! After everyone left, Mom and I went for a walk, and then I went for a nice bike ride. Derek, Sara and Kailyn came over around 10 and we just sat and talked in the living room for two and a half hours. I couldn't believe how fast the time went! It was so great just to see them again and catch up with them though. I love my friends. I got about five and a half hours of sleep last night, which was good. On Thursday night I got eight hours and felt exhausted all day Friday. But since then I've gotten six at max, and have felt fine! It's kind of sad that I'm conditioned to thrive on six hours. Eight is too much now... makes me tired. Weird! I'll have to work on fixing that up.
So the drive back was pretty quiet. I just read a lot, and was (unfortunately) more introverted than I've been in a long time. It's such an engrossing book though: Dead Man Walking, by Sr. Helen Prejean. I highly recommend it! After Mom and Dad left, I unpacked and then went out for a nice run. It felt so good to get out, and it was absolutely gorgeous no matter where I went! It's at the prime stage of spring, so all the trees are just starting to bloom and baby leaves are peeking out. Everything is bright and new and fresh... it's all coming to life once more. The tulips and daffodils are blooming, and the new grass is still soft and vibrant. Looking around today, I realized that this time of year is the reason my favorite colors are yellow, pink and green. Those colors remind me of spring! It was exciting to get out running, especially at that time of day (6ish...) because the sun was still golden and warm and oh, it was just good to be alive! There was one minor mishap in the course of my run, but it's not of any particular importance to anyone else. I felt good at the end, so I went further than I normally do. After that my general mood took a slight tumble again, but that's okay. I'll cycle back, I'm sure. Tonight's just been kind of saddening, maybe just being back here and all. It's bittersweet.
So there, I've given you a thorough recap of the moments that provided the foundation for the "Easter rejuvenation" portion of this post. As for the "homework depression," I think it speaks for itself. I have a lot of homework, which builds on outside sources of sadness to create the familiar state known as homework depression. This is a simple and broadly accepted aspect of college life. I don't want to talk any more about that though, because I don't want to drag down your mood plus the subject matter is too personal for this blog.
So I hope you're all doing well and that you've had spectacular Easters! This is truly the season of new beginnings and rejuvenation, so I hope you all get to take advantage of it.
~<3~
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